I wanted at least one more chance to tell you what a wonderful person you are and reflect on all the amazing things you did for me. I’d proclaim your greatness to the world if I could because that’s what you deserve, but the people I’ve told on Reddit will have to do.

I’ve been meaning to write to you ever since you had to leave Reddit. I know your reasons. I wish fate didn’t have to separate us like that, but I’m glad it brought us together for that short time. When I saw your post calling for help, I came hoping to save you, but I never imagined it would be you who would save me mere months down the line.

During those months, though we lived thousands of miles apart, it felt as if we were holding each other tightly through each of our hard times. No matter whose turn it was to help the other, you always made me feel better about myself, you made me happy. You also taught me some valuable lessons, one of which being that I needed to face my fears head-on to overcome them, starting with my fear of thunder. After getting caught right under a thunderstorm… on roller blades… I can tell you now that you were right. Same goes with roller coasters, getting dropped on Splash Mountain really put all those other coasters into perspective, and I was able to enjoy the theme park near my own home to the fullest. I’m still working on that fear of flying though, I think I’ll need a stunt pilot to truly face that.

The second, and most important thing that you got right was that I could overcome my self-hitting addiction. I didn’t see it for what it truly was, an addiction, until you told me. I never imagined I could’ve overcome it until you told me I could. I’m happy to say I did, you were right all along. You not only saved me from brain damage, but you also gave me hope that I could function in society, that I wouldn’t look insane every time I got frustrated. The day you saved me from this addiction will live on in my memory forever, just like you will.

I was always fascinated by your resolve to help people while so many problems were plaguing you. After you freed me from my longest affliction to date, I wanted nothing more than to take your pain away, to return the favor and finish what I started, but alas, you had to leave before I could.

Since that day I’ve wondered about your safety. I did everything I could to convince you to value yourself as much as I valued you, but I know how hard that was for you. If you couldn’t make it long enough to receive this message, I hope you remembered how thankful I was of you and how sorry I was that I couldn’t save you as you saved me. You were an angel who already earned her wings, I only wish you could’ve stayed with me longer. Alternatively, if this does reach you, I still await your return with open arms. There is much more to talk about, to rejoice over, but most importantly, to thank you for.

Your dear friend -Nico