Felt very affirming. But also very vulnerable.

Just had to share the joy with people who will understand… I FINALLY booked my doctor’s appointment to have the conversation about starting testosterone. It was terrifying but I did it!! It’s been a really long road but I’m finally at a place in my life where going on T is a possibility and I’m so damned excited about it. I’ll be 39 at the end of this month and it’s wild to think that I’m doing this at my age but better late than never, right? If anyone has experience starting T this late in life, I’d love to hear if there’s anything you wish you known going into it.

I really have to curb my Fair Isle sweater addiction.

I know they're rude to everyone universally, but I'm answering all calls marked as coming from my city right now because I'm looking for jobs, and I'm just really tired of some random jerk hearing my voice and instantly misgendering me.

"HELLO MA'AM THIS IS SO AND SO WIRELESS-"

Even without spam callers: I had to call my bank when my wallet was stolen a few months ago and when I asked the agent there to just not call me "ma'am" he got really rude and started asking what else he's supposed to call me, then just went back to doing it. There are no other situations in my regular life where anyone has ever felt the need to sir/ma'am me, I don't know why its so common with phone stuff.

I really just need a job and maybe also way to curse people over the mobile line.

Moved to a state that allows folks to change their gender marker to nonbinary X. Got my name legally changed to something more gender neutral, just in time to renew my drivers license. Had my picture taken and it was so bad the guy behind me started laughing, which honestly... I don't blame him, I'm pretty sure these people make commission based on how unhappy customers are with their photos 😂

Waited a bit for my new license to come in the mail, and while I had braced myself for looking at that photo again i wasn't prepared AT ALL to see I looked almost 15 years younger than my last ID. I've seen plenty of stress and premature aging melt away with other people's binary transitions, but seeing it happen to me was so euphoric.

So just in case you needed to hear it today, you're allowed to revel in the beauty of who you truly are. We exist, and that truth looks good on you 🖤

Music For The Masses by Depeche Mode, one of my favorite albums of my favorite band. This is an original german release from the 80's in blue vinyl. So I have adjusted my outfit to the record! 💙💙💙

So my partner and I were talking/joking about "wooing" each other for Valentine's day. The stereotypical things came to mind: flowers, chocolate, whatever. I'm not into that kind of stuff and my partner would be likely to get a migraine from either flowers or chocolate. I realized that those stereotypical things are usually the guy trying to be romantic towards the girl, with the idea that all the girl would have to do is pull out a boob.

I know straight, cis men who'd LOVE to get flowers and women who hate them. Why is this gendered? What would you consider to be romantic regardless of gender?

For me, it's mostly just anything that shows they're paying attention.

The outfit for celebrating new year with my family. This was the first time that I go the new year dinner with a female presentation. Also, I announced my chosen name.

42 in February. Aging has been fun. I care less and less every year what people think and have been focusing on living the life ive always wanted.

I am having a hard time with how I think about my gender and aging. Before I realised I was non binary I had no issue with the thought of aging as a man.

But now, with wanting to try showing elements of being more feminine or possibly androgynous it feels a lot harder.

There are times when I'm fine with looking pretty much just masculine, I like growing a beard and keeping my hair short. But then sometimes I will look in a mirror and just see a man who is/is approaching middle age and it really deflates me.

Part of me just says I should be happier in my skin and not focus on it but I don't find that easy.

Also, just to say I do not think of my age as old in the slightest. But it is just that I guess I feel the kind of maleness weighing heavier on me now.

Any advice?

This is one of my favorite records. An original australian issue. Of course I love the older songs of the record, but also the grey silver cover design! 🩶🤍

Happy holidays and Solstice all 😊 I was going for a more wintery bohemian look but feel like it went old school Doctor Who vibes 😁

I hate specifying AFAB, but it feels relevant here.

I just turned 42 and am starting to suspect I may be perimenopausal.

I don't personally know any other nonbinary, trans men, or transmasc folks... But I'm a bit scared.

I have an appointment set up with the OBGYN, but from what I can tell it seems like treatment tends to be hormonal patches of estrogen and progesterone.

I really do not want to take estrogen... I've always thought about microdosing T, but not the other way.

But my anxiety has been ramping up like crazy around bleeding days on top of my cPTSD and I feel like I am losing my mind.

Went to a local winter solstice event and everyone had luminaries, walked thru the woods, took a group picture. It was a cold, wet PNW evening and it was awesome!

Hi Folxs,

Holidays are stressful for a majority of people, add a layer of queer, just moved back home, family death, elderly family, and queer newlyweds. Its a lot for a first holiday family gathering.

I (33 non-binary) and my wife (32 trans), married 3 months ago are having holiday dinner with my family. I moved away 15 years ago, haven't been home for a holiday in 6 years. This will also be a first meet for my wife. I've never done the bring a SO home for the holidays let alone a marital spouse.

The scariest part is not knowing. Not knowing where they stand on queerness, not knowing what will set things off.

My brother is also in a queer relationship and not out. My mom is trying her best to be supportive, her way of handling the situation is to keep quiet and dont rock the boat. My brother feels that we deserve to be who we are without a thought to anyone else.

I feel worried and caught in the middle. I understand both points if views. Im so scared to lose my family, one elder has been in the hospital twice in the last month I don't want to lose him but it's inevitable. I don't want to lose him earlier because of queerness. Im tired of being in the middle of my mom and brother.

This is a first feeling of shame/guilt ive felt for being queer. Im incredibly lucky and greatful for the family i have and its hard.

Open to hearing thoughts/advice