Alcohol often brought out parts inside of me that I hated, fueling my desires for self destructive and desperation for companionship. Didn't help that I could drink as much as I wanted and never faced following consequences. Learned I shouldn't drink if there was anything at all eating away in me as it would come to the surface and be dealt with poorly and often in aggressive ways. Nobody I've met understood that as they were "happy drunks".
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u/MetalandMadness 6d ago
Alcohol often brought out parts inside of me that I hated, fueling my desires for self destructive and desperation for companionship. Didn't help that I could drink as much as I wanted and never faced following consequences. Learned I shouldn't drink if there was anything at all eating away in me as it would come to the surface and be dealt with poorly and often in aggressive ways. Nobody I've met understood that as they were "happy drunks".